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I was never popular in high school. I had a few close friends, most of which turned on me. 2 boyfriends, neither of which lived in this state. I was always the awkward girl who never had a partner for group projects. My friends were always smarter than I was, more confident than I was. So now I’m an awkward 18 year old with about 3 friends, 3 really close, really great friends. My boyfriend finally lives in this state but that doesn’t make me anymore confident.

When I was in my abusive relationship, I was constantly shut down by him for being overweight (I weigh about 10 pounds over what I’m supposed to weigh, and I always have). He shut me down for being average looking. He’s the reason I cake on the makeup, and no matter how many people tell me I look fine without the makeup, that statement will always stick to me.

you’re just a fat, ugly slob. The reason I’m still with you is because I feel downright bad for you, no one else would date you.

this has been a post.  

scream to be heard.